ftm_boi

So yeah, I feel like I've been a bit of a slacker on my NaNo novel already. But if I look at it realistically, I've been working like every day since it started, and also running a ton of errands for my family, so I haven't really been slacking, I've just been busy. Anyway, I do have some of my novel done, and so I decided to share a bit of it.


I know it's not much, but it's the bit that I feel the most comfortable sharing right now.  I'll try and get another snippet up later this week before I leave for Texas.

Word Count: 2014
Chapter Count: 3
Days left: 25

All material under the cut is the intellectual property of ftm_boi and may not be used without my permission.

So yeah, I haven't updated in a while.  Things have been hectic.  Work, family, school, relationship, etc.

I'm single now.  And I'm actually kind of glad about that.  I need to get out on my own, be myself, and all that other existential bullshit people say when they really just want to go out and get laid.  XP

And so I was hanging out with a friend very, very early this morning.  He told me I should write for NaNoWriMo.  National Novel Writing Month.  Basically it's a challenge: Write a 50,000+ word novel between Nov. 1 and Nov. 30.  I spent a good bit of the day debating whether or not I was going to do it.  In the end, excitement won out over trepidation.  I need to do this, for myself.  Just to prove that I can finish something.  Catharsis is an awesome word. XD

So at 12:00 midnight, I'll be writing.  I'll probably post some kind of update or excerpt every few days or so.  Not that anyone will read it lol.

NaNoWriMo!!!!

I would like to apologize in advance for the annoying use of all-caps....

I JUST SAW TRANFORMERS, AND IT WAS FUCKING SPECTACULAR!!!!!!11!1oneoneone

*breathes*

Now, I promise not to ruin the movie for anyone...  But I will tell you that it was, without doubt, the most visually stunning movie I've ever seen in my entire life.  Bring a box of tissues with you when you see this movie--you're gonna need 'em to clean up when your eyes orgasm all over the place.  Seriously.

I was originally worried that they would take something that I, and most everyone else in my generation, hold sacred, and completely fuck it up.  But this movie exceeded any expectation I could have had for it.  There were enough nods to the super-geek fans like me, who know every line to the original movie, to keep us all satisfied.  The action was mind-exploding enough to make the non-fans who tagged along with their geek buddies clap at every fight scene.  This movie just kicks ass.  So, so much ass.  There aren't enough people in China to supply the ass that this movie kicks.

I'm just worried that all the movies I wanted to see this summer are going to end up being boring for me, now that this movie has set the bar.  I plan on seeing the new Harry Potter movie the weekend after my b-day, but I just don't think it'll hold a candle to Transformers...

Oh well.  In the immortal words of Optimus Prime: One shall stand; one shall fall...

All I have to say right now is:

One Bourbon

One Scotch

One Beer

... w00t.

Sorry about that last post, F-list, if any of you saw it...  I was kinda pissed and just needed an outlet, lol.  Things have been a little crazy lately.  My mom ended up in the hospital during spring break, and now she's home, and she's got a pacemaker.  I've had to take up a lot of little duties for the family, like cooking meals and doing errands like mid-week grocery store runs and taking stuff to the dry cleaners, etc.  It's good though, because the extra work has kept me from getting all freaked out over what's happened.

Another weird thing happened a couple weeks ago.  I got called "faggot" for the first time.  Twice actually, in the span of a week, and both times it was from the window of a moving vehicle.  The first one was kinda easy to blow off, since it was some little wannabe thugs singing hip-hop (badly) with their windows rolled down.  My buddies and I rolled up to the light next to them, and since our windows were rolled down too, we could hear.  We laughed, which, admittedly, was kinda mean, and so the kids in the car imitated our laughs, then drove off yelling "faggot" as they went.  Was it wrong? Yeah.  Did I let it get to me? Hell no.

But for some reason, the second time really got to me.  I was at my favorite hangout, this little local coffeehouse, and I was out on the front porch, minding my own damn business.  Then this car drove by, and some jerk leaned out the window and yelled "faggot" at me.  It could be that he thought I was someone else, someone he knew, and he was just playing a joke or something.  Or it could be that my gayness was so obvious from 40 or so yards away that it set off his homo alarm.  I dunno.  At any rate, it really stung.

I suppose I'd been lulled into a false sense of security, what with all the open and accepting people I've surrounded myself with.  But there are still idiots, even in really "liberal" areas, who feel like they need to throw words at other people to validate themselves.

Whatever.  Bring it on, bitches!  And next time, get it right.  It's Trannyfag.  Got it?

And in tribute to Eddie Izzard...

12 monkeys mating
11 donkeys dancing
10 pygmies... farming
9... socks.. a-swimming
...
...
...
FIIIIIVE GOOOOOOOLD RIIIIIINGS!

teehee

Okay, first off, Final Fantasy XII has been holding my soul hostage lately. I had inital misgivings about the new active battle system, but now that I'm used to it, it's really innovative and fun. Don't get me wrong, turn-based combat is still number one in my heart, but it's good to try new things every once in a while ^_^. That and the game is just nice to look at, lol.

But tomorrow, I will have Guitar Hero 2... And I decided, "hey, why not check out the song list so you'll know what all you can rock out to..."

So I look it up and there are some really good new additions that make me really excited. Here are a few of my picks:

Kansas - Carry On My Wayward Son
Guns n' Roses - Sweet Child O' Mine
Foo Fighters - Monkey Wrench
Black Sabbath - War Pigs

And then I scroll down to check out the bonus tracks. And OHHH EMMM EFFF GEEE!!!

TROGDOR

*dies*

I absolutely can't wait to play that song. I'll probably fail because I'll be laughing so hard, lol.

But yeah. Guitar Hero, and Guitar Hero 2... Definitely essential games if you're even remotely into rock. And much more accesible than your average Konami released rhythm game. So give 'em a try!

I got this tat because it was a symbol Stradley really liked. In fact, he had it on both arms. His were filled in black, but I decided to have my stylized a little more. I wish he were here so he could see how cool it looks. I know the pic quality's crappy cause I took it with my phone. The color's a little off because I just got it done a few hours ago. When the redness goes down I'll take a better pic and post it.

I'm sorry I didn't call you back.  You must've gone thinking I was a real asshole.  Yeah, I was busy with classes and stuff, but I could've at least taken a couple minutes to call and say hi or something.  I'm sorry I avoided you sometimes.  Because even though there were times that I felt used, there were also times when we had a lot of fun together.  I wish I had been there for you more often.  I wish I could've said goodbye to you.  I really hope you're happy though, wherever you ended up.  Cause you were always kind of sad, even when you were laughing.  You had a great laugh though!  I'm going to miss it.  I'm going to miss you.  And I want you to know that I'm getting that tattoo, the one you had, that you liked so much.  That way I can remember you, and that little bit of you will keep going.

Shit, I'm sorry.  I know I sound like an idiot, I mean, how could I have known, right?  But I really am.

I'm really going to miss you... 

Goodbye, Stradley

Tagged by ithilgwath
1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next 4 sentences on your LJ along with these instructions.
5. Don't you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest.
6. Tag five people.

"None of this bodes well for the future, for events from the past teach us that passion respects neither rank nor station.  For example, the spirit of the high priest Kakinomoto pursued Empress Somedono relentlessly, and it was beyond the power of the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas to prevent her from yielding to his malevolent spirit.  The holy man of the Shiga Temple was also smitten by passion, but he was luckily returned to the true way by the sympathy and skill of the lady he loved.  Ariake's passion is unusually strong, and I advise you to keep what I have said in mind when dealing with him."

Yeah, I know, it's kinda boring.  But do you know how hard it was for me to find a book in my room that wasn't either entirely in Japanese, or mostly made up of pictures???

Anyways, I will commence with the tagging.

drowning_london
obentou_imoyaki
dirty_spammer
ew_younerd
chibinecco

Okay, so um... Married to Gai? That's totally cool with me! And erm, I kill Iruka? O_o;

Oh yeah, we all know Shikamaru's a total chubby chaser ^_^ I *heart* this pairing, and I just kinda had an inspiration to try my hand at making an icon. Hope you like!

In Loving Memory:
Donny
Loyal Friend and Companion
5/31/92 - 8/21/06

I'm really gonna miss you, buddy...

So yeah, lots of crazy sh!t today. Mostly good though. The 'rents got back from Florida with the new car (which is ridiculously fun to drive, by the way). I learned how to say "marijuana" in Japanese. I found out what happened to Richard from "Caroline in the City"... (ZOMG he's Steve from "Adam & Steve"!!!) And pie!sex.

Oh Chris Kattan... I love you.

No, rly.

If you haven't seen "Adam & Steve", go rent/buy it and watch it. Now. I command thee! If only just to watch the deleted scenes and see Parker Posey and Chris Kattan have munchie-induced pie!sex.

Yeah.

And my mom is nutz.

ME: *LOLZ* My friend _____ just emailed me... He's so excited--he emailed this porn star cause he'd been reading his interviews and stuff, and the porn star actually emailed him back!
MOM: *spews fire from mouth* ZOMGHENEEDSTOBECAREFULBECAUSEHECOULDGETKILLEDORRAPEDBECAUSETHOSEPEOPLEARECRAZYANDBLAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!
ME: O_o! Jesus, mom... He just freakin' emailed the guy...
MOM: BUTSRSLYHECOULDGETHISLIVERCUTOUTORABOWLINGBALLGROWINGOUTOFHISANUSORBLAHBLAHBLAH!
ME: MOM.... Chill... If anything, (my friend) _____ is the creepy person, because it was all like "Hi, you have no idea who I am, but I watched your porn and I think you're a really nice person... Like, email me back! KAYTHXBYE!"
Mom: ................ Oh.... Okay, I thought you meant something else, like the guy had been talking to him and trying to meet him or something...

Now... I never said anything to even SUGGEST that had been the case. *sigh* Yeah, mom's crazy.

Well, I have copious amounts of Japanese homework to half-ass my way through finish, so that I can do my best in class tomorrow. So I'll see you later!

PS: Yay, I posted and it's only been a week! Go me!

So yeah, I haven't posted anything for 8 months... And I don't even really have a legitimate reason. Jeez, I'm such a loser. I'm going to try to be more reliable from now on, and try at least to post every week or so.

Things are going well for me, though. I'm doing summer classes, and getting respectable grades. My job has sort of screwed me on hours for about the last month, so I'm really low on cash, but I've got a really supportive family, so things have been okay. And having the weekends free has allowed me time to unwind that I haven't had in a long time. Through the entire first summer semester, I went to class 5 days a week for 3 hours a day, studied another 6-8 hours on top of that, and worked full 8-9 hour shifts on saturday and sunday, so I had no days off whatsoever. This is definitely a welcome break ^_^

That said, I've been feeling the urge to write lately, and hopefully by posting here in my journal I'm taking the first step to being creative again. Wish me luck!

I ganked this from ame_emi_dai

STEP ONE

- Make a post (public, friend-locked, filtered - whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 Christmas wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fun ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

- If you wish for real possible things, make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you. [In my case, leave a comment]

- Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ, so that the Christmas joy will spread.

STEP TWO

- Surf around your flist (or friends' friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. Here's the important part:

- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use - or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free - do it.

You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out; it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf - to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not - it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

My Wishlist:

1. If I could have anything at all... $7000, and a set date for my chest surgery

2. Working male genitalia. Maybe 6-7 inches hard.

3. A party with all of my friends, ALL of them, even the ones halfway across the country.

4. Just one whole day without anyone in my family referring to me by a feminine pronoun (no one else does, because to everyone else, I'm just a guy).

5. The RENT Movie Soundtrack with Mark on the cover.

6. A Mark/Roger fanfic, NC-17 rated, in which Mark isn't whiney, needy, and girlish, and Roger isn't an uber-posessive fuckhead. I want Mark to have some balls, and for Roger to be curious about letting someone else be the agressive one for once.

7. A Iruka/Kakashi fanart, any rating, but without a blushing uber-femme Iruka.

8. Guitar Hero

9. A trip to Japan.

10. A car for Michael.

It's based in the Naruto-verse, and centered around an original character. I know, I know, I can see the rolling eyes already. But hear me out, okay?

Henge no Jutsu is intriguing to me. I've thought, on many occasions, what if I could use Henge? My life would be awesome... I wouldn't have to worry about binding anymore. I wouldn't have to worry about costly surgical procedures. I could just concentrate, release my chakra, and blam! Instant boy.

So, what if someone in ninja-land felt like me? Trapped in this body that I shouldn't have. Unable to look in the mirror half the time. Would they use Henge as an escape? This is something I've been fairly itching to write about for months. And I finally put bic click pencil to paper and wrote something. So, behind the lj-cut is a rough character bio, and a little bit of a potential story. Any comments are greatly appreciated.

And this will eventually turn into a collab fic with ithilgwath.

( Henge no Jutsu: Maikawa Tomo )

This is the IruKakaIru fic I've been working on for ithilgwath.

Title: None, as of yet
Rating: For now, light R for language, eventual NC-17
Fandom: Naruto
Paring: Eventual IruKakaIru
Genre: Slight Crack, PWP-ish, Yaoi
Summary: (I suck at these) Gai hears a rumor about Kakashi, and upon confirming it, decides to take action!

( Click here if you dare... )

I was wanting to finish my fic for ithilgwath by this past weekend, but every time I sat down to write, I couldn't crank out more than 300-400 words at most.  I don't know why I'm so uninspired lately...  Maybe it's because I'm sick.  Maybe it's because I've got 10 billion ideas running around in my head and I can't sort through all of them enough to concentrate on one at a time.  Maybe I'm just trying too hard or something...

At any rate, I have this 2/3 finished fic, and I'm getting a little worried that it's not going to live up to my own expectations.  I'm thinking of posting it as a chaptered fic, since it's gotten to be pretty long.  And the comments I might get would likely bolster my confidence enough to get me to finish the damned thing.  One problem with posting it like that is: I have no title.  And I really can't think of one that would fit...

I don't know how many people read my journal, so I don't know if posting what I've got here would do me any good or not.  Maybe it'd be theraputic to post it and just have it out here, knowing that someone might happen to come across it and give me a little constructive help, and maybe even a title suggestion.

Also, I think something that might be really good for my creativity is a nice RP.  I haven't RP'd in for-freaking-ever, and when I did, it was so easy to write.  So I'm thinking of starting a RENT RP...  Probably set post-RENT maybe a few months, maybe a year, with the aim of getting Roger and Mark together realistically.  I'd only do this if I could find people who'd be willing to take up the major characters, as well as add a few well-written OC's to the picture.  I'd like to play either Roger or Mark, because I can see elements of both characters in myself, and I think I can pull off a decent RP of either of them.  So, anyone willing to be the Mark to my Roger, or the Roger to my Mark?

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! Last Friday I punched ame_emi_dai in the arm (-10 points). In February I pulled over and changed ryder_blue's flat tire (15 points). In August I helped triggur hide a body (-173 points). Last month I gave triggur a kidney (1000 points). Last Tuesday I gave ithilgwath a life-saving blood transfusion (50 points). Overall, I've been nice (882 points). For Christmas I deserve a red Radio-Flyer wagon! Sincerely, ftm_boi

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